Y say sorry??
wahaha.. today receive 3 presents.. one from gor, one from alicia lee and another one from kuo hua.. haha.. so happy.. well.. those ppl who failed their A maths during the mid-year exam, hav to go and take a retest this afternoon.. hav faith in urself sia.. dun worry.. all of u will pass the exam.. then me, wenyao and mingyu went for the 3D animation course.. dun think we going again next week.. so sian one.. then mostly sec 2s.. after tat.. i thought hsun how to play the song he wanted to learn long ago one.. in the end, elton and george also want to learn tat song.. so funny.. tok to chonghua today.. over sensitive sia.. tok until cry.. haizz.. then after tat chonghua went to tok to him.. duno wat they say.. and duno y chonghua juz smsed me to say sorry to me.. surely its something bad.. cant he juz tell me?? and let me absorb the truth first.. and i will be alright by then.. i noe le.. he juz replied my message.. haha.. its abt the past.. but still feel very weird.. feel kind of fed up now.. haizz.. how??
scribbled @ 9:30 PM
Lost and Found
while on the way to Toa Payoh central tat time.. me and gor took bus 231.. after alighting, got one guy ask us to donate $5.. then i touch my pocket.. and found out tat my wallet was actually gone.. so frighten then.. duno wat to do.. omg.. lucky.. there's one girl tat was actually seated beside us saw it.. and took it for me.. she eventually go and look for me.. haha.. so touched.. omg.. really muz thx her.. if not for her.. i will already cry like hell.. :) juz now tok to gor.. duno y.. juz cant get happy.. still sad.. bored.. everything bad.. haizz.. i duno wat happened.. stupid me..
scribbled @ 10:41 PM
Library
today mrs.how didn't came to school.. and ended up wif mr.lee taking our class.. so long nv run le.. but dun think tat my stamina deprove.. haha.. coz can keep on running for quite some time.. mayb its bcoz of my mood involved bah.. keep smiling throughout the run.. after sch.. i went to the library wif gor.. had a hard time finding Mdm. White Snake tat chinese novel.. luckily gor got go wif me.. or else.. dun think i wanna find if he's not there.. went to the second floor to find also cant find.. feel so useless.. then went to the third storey.. borrowed a book titled "Things Not Seen".. then so unlucky.. when we went to the first storey and towards the borrowing station.. we saw adelia and janelle.. wonder if she will go and tell others anot.. haizz.. then i went to eat tea egg.. hot!! :) think of something funny.. everytime is i send gor gor back one.. today also the same.. send him up the bus.. and ride for 2 stops.. so silly.. juz nice.. the bus 105 juz behide.. so convenience for me.. :) when i was abt to cross the road, i am sure tat its red light.. but then.. tat stupid driver didn't stop.. still want to drive past.. nearly knock me down.. stupid.. haizz.. not in good mood sia.. duno why.. also duno y when he tell me tat he lost tat necklace i can still laugh.. then now bad mood.. ah!! i really duno!! wat is happening to me??? can anyone pls tell me..
scribbled @ 6:49 PM
Present giving day
haha.. today aya like our santa claus like tat.. giving us presents.. got mingyu's puzzle, anni's candle clay, wenyao's doggie (not sure) and mine hair clip!! haha.. so nice of her.. gor gor also very nice.. help me take my books.. haha.. well.. i gave him this 2 words today: "Sarang Heyo" wonder if he can find its meaning anot.. if cannot find nvm.. as long as i noe the meaning then can le.. haha.. our school bball team lost the match today.. sad.. but dun give up guys.. try harder.. u all can do it! yeah.. started doing my puzzle i bought at the pasar malam.. so difficult.. haha.. gor say he will give me the necklace tml.. hope he will remember to bring it tml.. Jia You!!
scribbled @ 11:20 PM
Presents and Presents and more Presents!!
wahaha... today school reopen le.. got lots of presents.. so nice.. got from hsun the tiara.. its so beautiful.. still got present from gerlynn and livia.. the necklace from gerlynn is damn nice.. haha.. but.. my jewellery box will always be very empty without the necklace he buy one.. juz duno why he dun want to give it to me?? sad.. i really wanna see tat necklace.. haizz..
well.. thinking of wat to buy for her.. and him.. he says tat i noe wat he wants.. but wats it?? duno.. meryl leh.. hmmm.. duno wat she likes also.. she keep saying tat she hav everything tat she wants.. winnie present also duno wat to buy.. broke liao!! haha..
my tummy ache almost for the whole day.. shld be tummy cramp.. aiyo.. he asked me to go and see a doctor.. yucks.. i hate seeing doctor after tat period of time.. stupid.. unless really very cham then i will go and see..
thinking abt lots of things.. feel so troubled.. told him wat happened to me and my first stead.. nearly cry.. haizz.. but i think he shld noe bah.. as my gor.. haha.. hope i wont think so much anymore..
scribbled @ 7:06 PM
Last day of June holiday
today.. went for my religion class.. did talk to him over the phone.. haha.. we made sushi.. so fun.. lolzz.. after class.. i called huiyi to ask her whether she wants to come over to my hse to do homework anot.. well.. she came bcoz she doesn't hav the book for the chinese homework.. juz sent her to the bus-stop.. had a heart-to-heart talk wif her.. i then discovered that actually.. in both of our romance life, it kinds of look alike.. and the feeling we hav for our guys (lots) is almost the same too.. mayb we 2 were twins sisters in the past.. therefore our thots are abt the same.. told her things tat no one ever noe.. not even gor.. which means, no one in the world except me and hy noes abt wat i m thinking.. haizz.. no mood to continue wif my homework le.. sian.. thinking abt me and him plus.. hy and the guys.. wonder wat will the ending be.. hope its a good one.. now die die also muz do finish my homework...
scribbled @ 8:30 PM
Physics Project
wahaha... today they come to my hse to do physics project.. there is mingyu, huiyi, wenyao and gor... anni cant come coz she haven started on her homework yet.. Jia You.. went to bring him to my hse coz he has nv been to my hse bfore.. waited for him sia.. *NOTE: I DUN WANNA WAIT FOR GUYS ANYMORE* but in the end, its always me waiting for others.. and seldom vise versa.. tats how punctual i am.. haha.. but i dun mind waiting for him.. haha.. gor mah.. its alright one.. while waiting for him, i went to buy eggs and my breakfast.. had a heavy breakfast sia.. coz feel like puking up after eating.. too full le.. the trip home very fast sia.. coz bishan is too near to serangoon.. haha.. lame reason..
like wat i said.. he will be the first to reach my hse.. haha.. anyway.. nv thx him for tuning my guitar back like i first bought it.. THX GOR!! haha.. he had a hard time to tune it back.. the first girl tat reached my hse was mingyu.. wet tats wat i can say.. it was raining when she reached my hse.. so poor thing.. shld hav ask me to go down and fetch her.. then she play the piano and gor play the guitar.. after tat its wenyao tat reached my hse second.. haha.. huiyi was damn late.. we didn't touch anything abt the project.. haha.. not like wat i expect.. i thot tat wif gor around, we will be able to at least hav a conclusion on wat to do... guess i am wrong.. nvm.. we watched lots of vcds sia.. haha.. got Incredibles, SpyKids 3D, Yi Tian Tu Long Ji.. shoik bah.. haha.. yeah.. cooking magee wif him was fun.. haha.. nv try cooking for 4 person before.. therefore, was jumping around in the kitchen.. haha.. then he help me cook.. then i also very useless.. cant even take up the magee and pour it into the bowl.. also need him to help me.. haha.. but there's one thing i am good at... tat is serving other ppl... didn't noe tat i can serve the bowls of maggee tat well.. dun need him to help me one.. haha.. to me tats the most easiest job.. :P
benson was waiting for him at church sia.. haha.. and gor was late bcoz i dun let him go.. then he say i bully him.. but after tat he bully my basketball.. haha.. bad.. evil.. lolzz.. its damn hot after the rain.. brought him to the bas-stop to take bus 76 so tat he can reach marine parade directly without changing any bus.. yeah.. he owe me my present.. i dun care.. it doesn't matter to me if tat necklace hav a cross or not.. juz give me.. i dun mind..
when huiyi reached my hse, its already 4 plus.. haha.. tats late.. she oni manage to do finished 2 maths questions.. tats considered not bad already bah... i duno.. mayb.. haha.. she so high.. telling us abt wat happened during the holidays.. and wat guys she met.. all not bad looking de..
then.. juz at around 8 plus.. i smsed him sth.. quite regretted tat i smsed him tat.. shld not sms him tat.. coz he starts blaming himself.. which made me very guilty.. its not his fault.. i shld not sms him tat.. stupid me... and silly me.. where got ppl tell others this kind of things one.. i think i m the most silly girl in the world.. haizz.. sorry gor..
but i am damn happy now.. haha.. duno why..
scribbled @ 10:41 PM
Mr & Mrs. Smith
today went to watch Mr & Mrs. Smith wif Aya, Ngaiming, Huimian, ChenXi and Aaron.. haha.. the movie is damn nice.. i encourage everyone out there to go and watch.. its an action movie wif love story included.. so touched.. haha.. after tat, went to eat ice kachang wif aya.. its ice kachang again!! my favourite dessert.. haha.. then went to walk at the pasar malam tat is infront of the library.. bought a 500 pieces puzzle.. its so nice.. Gemini sia..its 2 for $5.. cheap?? haha.. then i brought aya to kiddy palace to look at the gowns for small girls.. its so nice.. so pretty.. cant imagine myself wearing tat gown.. will sure look like princess i suppose.. still got those princess dresses, gloves and many more.. the barbie dolls also looks so beautiful in the wedding gowns.. *jealous* we walk about in the kiddy palace for quite a long time bfore heading home..
tml huiyi, mingyu, wenyao and gor gor coming to do project.. anni cant come.. haha.. gor was so shock when he heard tat he will be doing the physics wif a group of girls.. haha.. but no going out of the group now.. wahaha.. lolzz.. i think he will go crazy tml.. juz wait and see..
scribbled @ 10:41 PM
23rd June
today is winnie wijaya's bdae!! happy birthday to u!! haha.. went for chinese dance today.. so fun.. haha.. something happened to meryl today sia.. hope she is alright.. take care sia.. hh so funny.. he thot i will be angry bcoz of tat reason.. haha.. dun worry.. tml hav to wake up damn early for dance.. help him to ask mr.chan whether he can join our group for the physics project anot.. coz our group already meet the max amount of ppl.. but mr. chan so nice.. let him join our group.. then we hav 6 person in one group.. Thx Mr. Chan!! haha.. gtg le.. bye!! Sweet dreams to everyone!!
scribbled @ 11:14 PM
Tired...
almost whole day also not at home.. went out at 730 in the morning.. go fly kite wif my friends sia.. haha.. quite successful lar... not bad.. wahaha.. we went to west coast.. i m sure not many ppl went there bfore.. but i introduce tat place to all of u out there.. the playground over there is damn big.. and so fun to play wif.. even better than the pasir ris park one.. there also can fly kite.. big wind over there.. haha.. so long nv play wif them le.. so happy today..
after tat.. they drive me over to sch.. so paiseh.. i was wearing home clothes and it looks kinda weird coz sch friends had nv seen me wear till like this.. haha.. the seniors of npcc were there too.. and tat guy.. duno how to spell his name.. keep looking and me.. and laughing.. lolzz.. wanna dig a hole and jump in man.. the bball guys were shock to see me wearing until like tat.. and then enter the sch.. haha.. their expressions so funny.. mingyu even came over to give me a hug.. haha.. reach sch in time sia.. unbelievable.. haha.. coz thot will be late for chinese dance.. made it in time.. thanks to Yue Teng.. haha..
dance oni 2 hours oni.. thot its 3 hours.. had lots of fun during dance.. the steps so funny one.. haha.. looks so childish.. but we all sure had lots of fun.. coz can hear lots of laughter.. wahaha..
lay juz now tell me tat today she and hh went to hougang mall to buy for me tat tiara.. omg.. tats so far away from their hse lor.. and they went there juz to buy for me.. very touched.. how nice of them.. but i am sure they are having their own sweet time together.. haha.. happy for them sia.. its heart shape one.. tats wat lay says.. hh says tat its quite small.. to me.. small or big is not a problem.. its the sincerity tat counts.. i am so fortunate to hav such a nice friend.. hope i can see hh one of these days.. or sch reopen also can actually.. then i can show to everyone.. lolzz.. haha.. make everyone jealous.. no lar.. juz joking.. haha..
didn't tok tat much to him today.. he having course sia.. from early morning till evening.. then still hav to hav meeting held after tat.. quite tiring i suppose.. didnt get to see him online.. hope he is ok.. he's sick sia.. worry for him.. he did come online juz now.. coz he did blog something up.. after my class i called him.. but his hp is already switched off.. can understand.. he still hav to wake up at 5 plus tml morning.. dun wanna disturb him too.. and he sure hav a tiring day today.. well.. i can oni say Jia You to him.. cant do anything to help him..
i added my Personality Traits under those links.. some are quite true bah.. haha.. hope not all.. specially not the flirting one.. haha..
i juz noe tat actually lots of ppl almost everyday also got read my blog.. muz update everyday... then they will get to noe me even better.. haha.. thx for reading my blog!!
scribbled @ 11:46 PM
Low
Suddenly feel very low tat is.. can't cheer myself up sia.. its after looking at those photos they took in china.. duno wat happened to me also..
Tml they going to fly kite sia.. duno whether i shld go anot.. one gal threaten me to go sia.. feeling very vexed now.. haizz.. wat shld i do??
He also suddenly so interested in friendster... sian...
scribbled @ 8:55 PM
Art Lesson
today hav to go back school for art lesson... reached sch at 12.15.. dun dare to go and find those npcc cadets by myself.. so went to the canteen.. and saw mingyu and guanlin.. then they so call accompany me to npcc wif elton going back there.. they were pitching a tent for their juniors to see sia.. there are matthew, benson, shermin and shuqi.. shld hav gone there earlier.. so tat can see meryl.. coz shuqi say she left not long ago.. haizz.. they were busy pitching tent and didn't hav the time to tok to me accept for shuqi.. haha.. shuqi gave me my bdae present.. so happy!! wahaha.. he nv give me sia.. hmph.. shuqi so good.. inside tat bag got 3 things.. one bracelet, one handphone accesory another one is one kind of food she bought from china.. how nice of her.. this time i got lots of bracelets sia.. haha.. i dun mind.. i hav necklaces to match wif the bracelets.. wahaha.. we oni chat during the art lesson.. more like a picnic to me.. coz we all went out to buy tidbits back to eat.. shuqi even helped the npcc cadets to buy some tidbits to eat.. so nice.. haha.. he is still sick sia.. then still stand in the rain today.. so cham... so ke lian.. luckily meryl go geraldine's hse to do project first.. or she gonna be even sick le..
after tat.. rush for my organ lesson.. today passed 2 songs.. juz wat my teacher wants.. then she thot me the scales for organ today.. so damn difficult.. muz remember all.. gonna die le.. this year first time having organ examinations.. grade 3 one.. then.. nv hav any experience bfore.. still muz go and specially remember grade 1 and grade 2 scales.. omg.. so many to remember.. gonna faint le.. i think my teacher will vomit blood when she test me personally.. take care ah...
the school piano really spoilt le.. cant stand the sound.. so difficult to play Yu Jian and Tong Hua.. totally out of tune.. *faint* hope ms.pua can ask someone to repair tat old piano..
scribbled @ 6:30 PM
So sweet...
last night.. hh says tat he will buy for me tat tiara.. *at the top* how nice of him.. i oni tell him tat i want tat tiara and he says tat he will buy for me.. omg.. cant believe it.. duno when then can get it.. i dun mind others buying for me a tiara also.. the reason for buying it for me is to thanks me for teaching him Canon In D.. how nice.. though its not real diamonds.. but i m happy enough to have one le.. wahaha.. thx!!
later need to go to sch for art lesson.. so boring.. well.. jerome, hh and eric also says tat the piano in the canteen spoilt liao.. hmmm.. going earlier later to test out the piano.. who so daring to make spoil the precious piano.. so bad.. hope miss. pua will put a new one there.. or repair tat piano.. so tat everyone can play it like bfore again..
scribbled @ 9:50 AM
Sick
not i sick sia.. haha.. but he is sick... having a flu.. same wif her and her sister... y everyone having a flu...? wahaha.. tats bcoz he nv listen to me... over work himself and now sick... hmph... well... take care everyone!!
scribbled @ 11:57 PM
IC
wahaha.. today juz made my IC... so excited... nobody accompany go sia.. sad. coz i went out wif my friends bfore tat... then its too far.. at first its my dad bringing me there.. but nvm.. lots of ppl there today.. or i went there at the wrong time.. haha.. lunch time tat is..
before tat i went to Marina Bay, West Coast and Pandan Reservoir.. the field at the Marina Bay is like.. yucks man.. haha.. i wore jeans tat was very long.. then.. the field was like so wet.. my jeans were wet.. haizz.. how can they bully me like this.. wahaha.. among the 3 places.. hanxiang and me both thot tat West Coast is the best place to fly kite.. haha.. great minds think alike.. lolzz..
so tire sia.. last night do the Ultimate Spiderman Quiz till very late... then this morning 7 am wake up le... the back of my head very pain sia.. head pain...
scribbled @ 6:19 PM
THe ULtimAte SpIdermaN QuiZ
wahaha.. i done all the 100 questions first bfore gor gor!! so happy... omg... cant blieve it.. but of coz... bfore tat he got help me first lar.. or else i wont get it correct at such speed.. haha.. so happy... now i can tell him all the answers... lalalala...
scribbled @ 12:42 AM
Haizz..
In his blog hor.. he say until like i very bad leh.. haizz.. i where got so bad..?? i even send him to the interchange sia.. haha.. such a good sister.. lolzz.. i going to fly kite wif chris they all.. u all noe who is he?? haha.. come and ask me if u wanna noe... lolzz.. so excited.. so long nv go out wif them liao.. haha.. hope this time my kite can fly sia.. tml i going to make ic.. haha.. so.. haha.. duno how to express it using words.. wahaha.. hey.. dun stress out by homework sia.. do muz do.. but when its time to relax u better relax.. dun over do sia.. haha..
scribbled @ 10:02 PM
Omg!!
juz now at the Zhong Yi Da Ge Da hor.. the Lin Jun Jie (JJ).. sang the song "Think of Me" the song of the Phantom of the Opera.. omg... so nice... using a girl's voice to sing.. can't believe it...
scribbled @ 8:41 PM
Urgent!!
My friend urgently wanna get rid of his hp, samsung e720c, 3 weeks old @ a price of $550 (negotiable), original price $638 with no contract. And he is also trading starhub $100 voucher for $80 voucher. You may choose either one. His personal information is below
Justin
Beatty Secondary School
3E3
www.nariousac.blogspot.com
elternltystar@hotmail.com
You can go to his blog to find out more about why he is selling his hp.
scribbled @ 10:51 PM
Tired
Juz return home after going out wif mingyu and wenyao... but bfore meeting them, i meet him first.. haha.. so nice to see him again after so many miserable days.. like always.. he keep bullying me.. haha.. no lar.. its the other way round.. i bully him.. i took his spiderman comic and dun return him.. he nearly miss the bus too.. wahaha.. so nice of him to call me juz to say bye.. thot he not saying already.. haha.. after sending him away, i went to meet wenyao and mingyu.. both late.. haizz.. but nvm.. used to it le.. still thot tat i m late and they are there waiting impatiently for me.. haha.. we oni stay in the library for awhile.. hmmm.. i stay there quite long lar.. so shock to see chenxia and her friends there.. and to think tat he didn't even noe she was there.. haha.. need to make one pair of spects liao lar.. then we went to eat.. got Cha Ye Dan.. then i went to BanQuet to eat my favourite Ice KaChang!! wahaha.. this time round dun think will keep running to the toilet le.. haha.. so nice to eat.. icy and cool.. haha.. after this, we went to red circle to pass something to gary.. haha.. so sad gary cant go wif us to J8.. we took neoprints!! haha.. so nice.. juz got 2 new Guardian Angels today.. tats mingyu and wenyao.. haha.. they like guarding the princess.. lolzz.. coz i was wearing a tiara.. haha.. later will put the neoprint into my blog.. haha.. they took so much time to decorate.. stand till leg pain.. haha.. the singer Daniel, was having Yan Chang Hui over there at J8.. wenyao was so excited.. haha.. luckily she not as crazy as those gals there.. sing till so loud.. lolzz.. haha.. gor.. cheer up sia.. i suppose i noe wat happened le.. well.. she care for u tats y scold u mah.. dun be like this le.. Be Happy!! :)
scribbled @ 6:34 PM
Hmmm...
Last night i was writing halfway till my com went crazy.. well... didn't go to the library yesterday.. coz it was raining.. haha... hmm... he last night quite upset sia.. can hear from his sound.. he dun even feel like toking.. can understand.. cheer up man.. everythings gonna be fine sia... Jia You!
scribbled @ 11:07 AM
Happy!
haha... tonight suddenly so happy... duno wat happened... mayb bcoz of wat benson said to me this evening that makes me understand things tat i didn't noe... once again... thx benson! wahaha
scribbled @ 11:27 PM
Benson
wat benson had said to me juz now really clear my mind... wat he said was right... next time muz talk to him first bfore i get upset on anything...
Thx Benson!!! if not for u... i will still be crying now... haha...
scribbled @ 6:44 PM
HELP!!!
Last night i cried damn lots... couldn't get to sleep... sleep already still dream about him... dreaming how good he is to me... but all this is juz a dream... when i woke up... i remembered what he said to me last night.. and i started crying again... the more i cry... the more i will think of him.. is this wat u want??? want me to suffer like hell?? reality is cruel... last time u ask me if my dreams could come true.. would i go back to reality... i dun think i will... coz no matter wat the reality will still be cruel to me... i would rather stay in the dream where i am so happy in it... i could see myself smiling so happily in the dreams last night... twice somemore... i really wish i could juz stay in either of the 2 dreams... and not back to reality..
Reality is cruel... Dreams are sweet...
scribbled @ 9:43 AM
Too Straight-Forward
nobody has been tat straight-forward to me bfore.. i hope he is the first and the last.. yeah.. i am unreasonable.. petty.. and everything bad.. i am not up to the standard to be his mei mei.. or even not up to the standard to be his friend.. this is the first time ppl has ever tell me... i juz cried like hell in the toilet.. juz like the first time i break wif my stead like tat.. its been so long since i cry till like this.. haizz.. totally heart-broken.. i wont call u anymore..
scribbled @ 9:45 PM
Fear
this is wat i hav been fearing everytime i like someone.. though everything is over now.. and we want it to be like before.. but to me its like.. the distance between me and him is getting even further apart.. we dun see each other tat often liao.. nv tok tat much too.. he is always tat busy.. and i am like so free.. school gonna reopen le.. duno wat will happen to us.. hope everything will be fine.. haizz
scribbled @ 8:05 PM
Over
haha... everything is over... though its painful for me... but for them.. its worth it sia... good luck to the both of u... yeah...
scribbled @ 4:06 PM
Tears
Hot tears are swelling up in my eyes now... cant let it drop... this is wat i choose... i muz be brave to face it... like wat ahlay says... if i choose this way... i muz not regret.. hope i will not regret... i will not cry though it hurts my eyes... Good Luck for the both of u.. and... dun say sorry to me again... it really hurts me when u say sorry to me.. take care... bye...
scribbled @ 1:25 PM
Lost
i duno wat i shld do now.. i am totally lost.. i cant promise meryl.. i wont be able to do it.. i really duno wat i shld do.. i am gonna break down anytime.. she is gonna be fine.. and he will take good care of her.. they gonna be happy together without me..
i dun wan him to be wif me juz bcoz all his friends say tat we shld be together.. i wan him to really like me then be wif me... and not bcoz of friends... like tat everyone wont be happy.. and i would rather give up then to be wif someone tat doesnt like me...
can anyone juz tell me wat i shld do??
scribbled @ 10:34 PM
Boring...
this early morning he reply my sms... so early... 7 plus like tat.. then the npcc cadets in school liao... so damn early... then i call him... i chat wif the ppl there... quite fun... even tok to their sir... lolzz... and sir.. i am a girl... not a guy... dun anyhow change my sex.. haha.. chatting wif meryl was fun.. wonder why all the npcc cadets think tat me and him are together.. tats totally impossible.. heard tat they were so shock when they heard tat i wanna tok to meryl... tats funny...
he nv reply my sms one.. he good.. duno send how many sms le.. hmph... call him he also dun wanna tok... forget it then...
scribbled @ 6:15 PM
Triangular Relationship
i am going out of the triangular relationship between him, her and me... i suffer is better than 2 of them suffer... if i really like him.. i shld let him go... coz he can find the happiness he wants over there... i shld not be selfish.. wish tat u 2 will be together happily ever after...
scribbled @ 11:16 PM
scribbled @ 6:23 PM
A Broken Promise
last night before i enter my dreams... i remember that he say before that he will bring me out after i return from genting... that time when he said that... i was still so happy so excited... but now... he is almost booked for the rest of the holidays... just one thing... next time please don't promise me if the promise can't be kept.. you know how disappointed it is when someone you like promise you to do something and in the end the promise is broken, never kept... or can't be kept... Please don't promise me anymore... i don't wanna cry almost every night...
scribbled @ 9:12 AM
Just talk finished with him on the phone... in bad mood sia... just one thing... i am no longer a princess... well... other people is after not seeing each other for a long time their 'relationship' will be better... but i feel that mine is we are getting further apart... can hear that he is happy about her return... i don't believe that i am on his mind throughout his whole camp... he is just lying... its just to make me happy...
i should take out the necklace i just bought in genting... it was specially made... it wrote: 'Princess' and 'Chiou'... not a princess anymore therefore don't think i should wear it anymore, but to keep it in my jewellery box as one of the beautiful memories... i give up on being a princess... don't wanna cry anymore... no energy le... but i guess i still like him, only give up the hope of being a princess... just a commoner that just dream to be with a knight... his real princess is back... i am only a fake one... must go back to reality now... reality is painful... and i guess u can't do anything to ease the pain in my heart... nothing that is... you are booked for the whole week... and i suppose that we will only see each other when school reopens and you can see your princess for the rest of the holidays... haha... good for you... haha... *its hurting right inside me..*
Found a poem that says out what i am really feeling:
'Loving you is the best thing yet...
Missing you is something I'll never regret...
Losing you will be hard to accept...
But seeing you with her is the most painful yet...'
Guess that you won't understand this poem sia... its better that u don't understand...
The trip to genting highland was damn long... the bus ride took about 5 hours plus... but of course there is break time for us or else i think i will faint in the bus... haha... during one of the break, my parents bought for us one cd... the movie not over yet i think... its "Madagascar"... it only cost about $2 plus in Sing dollars... haha... cheap sia... before reaching our destination, we still have to take the longest and fastest cable car... it was about 20 minutes long... quite fun sia... haha... got beautiful scenery... still got lots of artifacts.. reached the hotel at about 2 plus... the room still not ready yet... still under cleaning process... haha...
on the first day... hmmm... what did we do?? we walk round the whole place, finding vegetarian stalls... the food there quite good sia... we ate alot over there... don't know whether got gain weight anot.. better not.. haha...
its very rush for us on the second day... we play both the indoor and outdoor theme park on the same day... and at night, we still have to rush for a show.. titled "X-TREME"... is some kind of circus like that... but no animals included... nice... glad that i watched it... we played the flying coaster... that was damn scary... i have the photo that was taken when we was on the ride...
just this morning... we went to play at the arcade over there... and my sis and bro are already addicted to the arcade over there... haha... they still don't wanna go home this morning... still wanna continue to play the games in the arcade... can't help it... too fun to play with liao...
still, i miss him lots over there... wonder whether he knows about it anot.. to me its like... nothing happened to him over here at singapore... bad news is already awaiting for me in singapore... once i return then got bad news... so unlucky of me... i think i will cry tonight.. every night also cry... but i feel better after a good cry... i won't be strong suddenly... and i won't be strong when i come to this kind of things... so don't expect me to cry when you tell me this kind of things... i should not take the birthday presents from you anymore... it should not be mine... but hers.. you keep it bah...
for those who are going perth tomorrow... be sure to have a safe trip... Good Luck to you all.. Jia You oh...!
scribbled @ 10:12 PM
Today is the day bfore i go genting... and the day after my first day of my 15 yrs old... the 2nd day out of the 5 days... hope he is doing well at the camp... duno whether he got miss me anot... coz i miss him lots... hope next monday we can go out together... wanna see him.. she's returning... how shld i react to this reality? i also duno... i shld juz let nature take its course...
its a tiring day... duno when downstairs how many times.. and my legs were still aching from the running on tuesday... go buy lunch, dinner, take dumpling from mummy's friend... haizz... duno when then it will stop aching... old liao.. haha..
quite happy now... coz... thinking tat... i go genting and play... sure the time will fly past us very fast... then... very fast i will return back to singapore... then i will be able to tok to gor again... so happy...
duno whether he has done his tuition homework le mah... coz i noe tat tml after he returns from camp, he still got tuition... after returning from camp... sure nobody will want to do homework immediately sia... Jia You... muz do hor.. *ENDURE* haha... u say one...
bye bye gor... take care sia... dun off ur phone on sunday night hor... remember!! miss yeah...
scribbled @ 9:13 PM
I noe le... having someone to talk to when u r sad is a good thing... so glad that gerlynn told me all this... she say tat... if he really likes her alot and alot, he will never, ever be able to forget her... and he can still like her... and he may never stop liking her... but that doesnt mean that i wun be part of him... i understand truely wat this mean... mayb i shld try to let go?? or wat??
scribbled @ 10:36 PM
i miss him lots sia... duno wat is he doing now... to think tat he not here on my bdae... even if he chat wif me on the phone oni on my bdae i will also be very happy... tears are threatening to fall out... y m i so weak... useless girl... juz see him this afternoon oni wat... haizz... miss chatting wif him... miss smsing him... miss reading his blog... miss everything abt him... wat shld i do???
y the knight still not here to save the princess??
scribbled @ 10:10 PM
Today is my birthday. i received quite a number of sms from my friends wishing me Happy Birthday. Received a call from my primary school friend, she wished me a Happy Birthday, so happy that at least there's one primary school friend still remembers my birthday. although happy, he never sms me this morning before he go for his camp, he promised me last night that he will sms me early in the morning.. everytime also like this, never keep his promise. very very disappointed. everyone had wished me Happy Birthday except for him. real sad.
my whole body aches this morning, should yesterday when celebrating i play too much le. especially my thigh's muscle. if i am not wrong, when we flying kite yesterday, i ran too much and i so long never run that much therefore my muscle will ache today.
Have to go back to school on birthday and to think that my birthday is on holiday, don't have to get back to school. but i am so damn wrong. I have dental checkup on my birthday. luckily my teeth were good, or else... i don't know what will the dentist do to my teeth... haha.
Last night when chatting on the phone with him, he wants me to find him after my dental checkup. i found him almost anywhere. outside the general office, exercise station there, parade square and at the IT block there. too bad that he can't talk to me, we only say hi and bye that's all... my birthday i still so poor thing...
Really hope that this 5 days will be over as soon as possible. though disappointed, but i wish that he is right in front of me or at the another side of the phone chatting with me. When can we see each other and talk to each other again??? today is only the first day, and i miss him so much le...
scribbled @ 6:50 PM
haha... today i celebrate my birthday! quite happy... early in the morning (not that early lar), i received one sms he sent to me which makes me fly up into the sky... though my heart fly... but my kite can't fly up into the sky... quite disappointed lar... run so much just to make it fly, but in the end still unable to fly up... elton and jerome manage to let the kite fly for awhile... haha... not bad lar... still able to see my that big kite flies up into the blue sky. i climbed up the so call 'spider-web' twice, to the very top. haha.. first girl from our gang to climb up to the top, so proud of myself... at evening time, hsunhao bought me the blow bubbles thingy.. there are 3 things that you can use it to blow out the bubbles and we the girls (me, yiling, saylay, huiyi and winnie) had lots of fun blowing it... haha...
tire, we settle down and chat... then they used my phone to sms him and ask him some questions that i longed to ask and afraid to ask... the answer, of course not really what i want, but i understand. then one of them still told me about his past, which makes me even sadder. I am sad not because my kite can't fly, but because of him...
i never tell him why i am sad on the phone, course i don't want him to be trouble when he is in camp. most disappoint one was that, he thought that i have changed heart and like someone else... well... Take care and don't worry about me when in camp... if can i will sms you on saturday when i am at genting highland...
lastly, i would like to thanks those who can make it to my celebration... thanks for the time and effort made... haha... really appreciate that all of you came (touched)...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY PRINCESS!!!
haha
scribbled @ 11:30 PM
Today, i went out wif him. Though its only for one hour plus. He gave me a 'bdae present', not the one he bought. haha. u all will never know. lol... i siao liao.. we go eat lunch first, so funny, both of us don't know want to go where and eat and we just go somewhere near the library to eat... i eat ice-kachang... delicious... haha... i helped him do some of his chinese tuition's questions.. it's so much easier than those ms.tan give us... after that, we went to the library. we seat in one corner of the library and just chat or look at the books around us... Even though it's just so simple things, but i am really happy about it... he eventually try to go out with me course tomorrow he can't celebrate my birthday with me and we wont be seeing each other or even sms each other for 5 days... i am touch... i am gonna miss him lots... :(
scribbled @ 9:32 PM
Today we went to science centre!! quite excited abt it... haha... the day bfore, i was still upset wif the fact tat he cant celebrate wif me my bdae... wonder how he noes tat i cry... haha... i m damn upset tat i ignore him... haizz... i woke up at 4 plus early in the morning.. coz keep thinking wat izzit tat he wants to tell me on the bus trip... haha... too crazy le... but its over now... he knew wat i was feeling and thinking long ago... he ask y i dun dare to tell him... duno how i shld answer... i took a long time to answer... haha... but i think he already noes abt it... dun need me to tell him... y i juz cant say it out loud to him...? haizz... stop saying all this le...
first we had chemistry adventure at the studio... it was fun... haha... didn't noe tat chemistry could be so fun to play wif... it was like magic...
after this, we got to tour around the science centre by ourselves... we were quite fortunate to see the chick hatch from the egg. not oni one.. but 3... haha... so cute... and of coz... we got to touch the chicks... so soft...
next we went to the OMNI Theatre... not really an interesting show... but at least i didn't sleep through the whole show.. haha.. coz i was toking to him rubbish... we still hav to listen to a lecture abt the show... so boring... haha... but actually i had quite alot of fun toking to him... yeah... haha...
gtg and sleep le... its alright 12 plus and i m still awake for goodness sake... haha... bfore going to sleep... Wish him good luck for his shooting competition tml... all the best... Jia You! :) nitez and sweet dreams guys...
scribbled @ 12:05 AM
